Mummy Needs To Be Brave…
Thankfully the doctor had his tablet with him this time, so Chunk could watch Peppa Pig whilst they spent a while measuring his heart and such like.
They confirmed the left side of his heart is working very hard and is quite enlarged and that Chunk is now a good weight for them to operate.
So someone is going to be playing with my boy’s heart and main artery in the next few weeks and it has FINALLY HIT ME.
I’m scared, and as soon as they give me the date I will be petrified.
It’s times like this I really hate being a single parent, as I have nobody to bear the worry with and to give me hugs during the procedure when I will be a complete mess.
This will be the scariest thing I have ever had to face in my life, because somebody will be performing risky surgery on the person I created and love with my entire being.
So facing this alone is not a nice prospect, but Chunk and I have been through so much during his little life, that I know I will deal with this, because I have to.
I am stronger than I give myself credit for, and I will be strong for both Chunk and I on that imminent day, because THERE IS NO OTHER OPTION.
Any tips on getting through this would be greatly appreciated fellow parents!
4 Comments
Kim Carberry
12th September 2014 at 8:32 pm
Massive hugs to you and Chunk! Be strong! When my girls went in for open heart surgery I was a mess, stressing so much….By the time it was all over I felt like such a fool for wasting so much energy!
A few things I found out when being with my girls in hospital is….Take your own pillows for yourself and try and get out every now and again for some fresh air it is tempting to stay with your child all the time but you need a break and a change of scene….Hugs x
Claire
12th September 2014 at 8:35 pm
Ah thank you so much! Yes I deffo need to start making a list for both me and him, easy to forget things for yourself lol
Pippa Ainsworth
2nd October 2014 at 11:04 am
So sorry to hear about the surgery it must be very scary! I don't have any tips I'm afraid but I hope the op is a success and Chunk is fighting fit soon xx
glennamy
7th November 2014 at 12:52 pm
I have never been in your position in regards to my child having to undergo such a worrysome operation, however my Mother was at deaths door due to a worn out valve and she got an replacement within the week and it saved her life. All I think I can say to help is that that his operation obviously needed, but please try to focus on the fact we do have a magnificent NHS who are there for us all when we are in need. Please let us know when he has had his procedure and will be thinking of you both.